i fell

hey there, it's me again. I'm probably one of the last people to watch janet's debut song, so... yeah.. i came to watch and it's GONE!! DIANDRA!!!! WHY IS IT GONE?!!! I WANNA WATCH IT!!!! i know i know, it's like a horror movie, but stillll i wanna watch it.... is it still in youtube?! gahhh gonna go check.. after i post something :)

so anyway, this week has not been a good one for me. DUH. Never in my life have i felt this self-conscious. i guess it isn't right to blog about it, since there's not much to say. what is done is done, what is said is said. i can't change anything, so i'll just suck it up and go. but of course i need my peeps to back me up if i fall. that's why i love you guys so much. and that's what i learnt this year.. friends are forever, guys are whatever :) (i know i know, cliche!) but seriously, i don't think i'd be able to face school without you guys. grrh, my grades are slipping.. i don't want to talk about that either. but it's bothering me.. i think i'm the lowest in class for physics... SH*T!

currently listening to Don't Trust Me by 3oh!3 IT'S SUCH A GREAT SONG!! the lyrics are good too :) catchy beat. lol

lately, i've been crazy about lyrics. I found a song that fits the mournful incident to "menimpa" us... it's called Tonight by the band FM Static. it's a really touching song. i'll post a link to youtube if you wanna watch it. the tune isn't important (but it's got a good tune anyway) focus on the lyrics cause that's where the meaning is...

I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat and told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight









I send my love.

Lovelyn (oh the irony)